I love food.
I love fast food.
I love fried fast food.
I love fattening fried fast food.
Did I mention that I love bread, pasta, tortillas, rice, chips, crackers, and raspberry coconut Zingers?
I love eating whatever I want…how much ever I want…and whenever I want.
In 1994 when Laura and I got married, I weighed 175 at 6’5″…slightly skinny to say the least. As my sports activity level plummeted and my time at a desk job escalated, my weight began to slowly climb. 180, 190, 200 and then 225. 11 years ago, my weight dropped to 180 during what amounted to a total life meltdown. As life re-stabilized, so did my appetite for pizza and everything else that included some sort of bready substance. Somehow, my weight climbed to 255 this past summer.
Oh my! How could this have happened?
(Please refer back to sentences 1-6.)
After growing into size 38 pants and having a hard time tying my shoes without feeling like my gut was being pushed up through my throat, I knew it was time for a change. There was something about wearing size 40 pants that scared me, and I hated feeling out of breath after putting on my socks and shoes.
The question became…WHAT DO I PREFER? Eating anything and everything…or feeling better physically, mentally, and emotionally?
One of my problems is that I tend to use food to soothe my anxiety and depression. This is a negative self-defeating strategy that obviously doesn’t work in the long-term. Yes, that entire bag of sour cream and onion chips tastes amazing and makes me feel better for a few minutes, but the side effects are less than desirable.
We all have self-defeating coping mechanisms that we turn to in order to soothe ourselves. Yours might be food, alcohol, shopping, over-exercising, over-sleeping, drugs, promiscuity, pornography, or something else. Only you know that.
Mine is primarily eating. Unfortunately, it’s not really something I can quit doing. Ha!
As I gasped for breath after tying my shoes, here are a few questions that got me thinking…
- Besides eating, what other strategies can I use to deal with anxiety?
- If I feel better and increase my energy, what will I be able to do that I can’t do (or don’t want to do) now?
- If I lose weight, what clothes will I want to wear that I don’t enjoy wearing now?
The answers to these questions motivated me to take action. I went on this crazy diet called “Eat Less, Move More!” Okay, it’s not really a diet…it’s called common sense. But…I was quite inspired by the Slow Carb Diet that’s promoted by Tim Ferriss in his book, The 4 Hour Body: An Uncommon Guide to Rapid Fat Loss, Incredible Sex and Becoming Superhuman.
Starting in late July 2018, I eliminated almost all bread, pasta, rice, chips, fried foods, and sweets, and I started to notice something. By eating chicken, beef, and vegetables primarily, I rarely felt bloated after a meal. I thought feeling heavy, full, and bloated was how you were supposed to feel after eating.
Guess what happened…I lost 65 pounds in about four months.
I changing my eating habits significantly, and now I’m starting to move my body a lot more. Will I be able to sustain this diet? I hope so. For better or worse, I tend to be an all or nothing sort of person. My ability to eat bread in moderation is not so great. I’m better off if I just avoid it altogether.
Maybe this time next year I’ll be posting a pic of that six-pack I used to have in high school. Ha!
BTW: Please don’t hear me saying to a certain weight is the right or best weight. I just know that I feel better now that my face isn’t bright red after tying my shoes.